jennaisthelaw:
So today, my mind felt all out of whack. I couldn’t focus, and I told Fenyo that I hoped he died in his sleep tonight (I’m so sorry I didn’t mean it!) (Ok at the time I did but I don’t now!).
We were doing a worksheet in math, and my teacher said “if you don’t finish this today, finish it for homework.” So I thought, alright, I’ll do it over the break when I’m not feeling funky. My teacher comes over and says “Jenna, you should get to work.” I say “I’m not going to do it now, I don’t think I can.” and she said “Jenna, do the sheet.” and I said “I’ll do it for homework, you said we could finish it for homework.” and she said “You do it now, or you leave.” so I left, and Mr.Maset was saying all this stuff about “defying the teacher” when I said I’d do it, just not that second. And then out of nowhere I started crying (probably because in school I’m such a good kid and never have to deal with authority and get scared when I end up having to), and he felt bad, and gave me a pass to go to the nurse whenever I felt like it. Then, at the end of that period, he called me down again and took the pass, saying that Mrs.Roger claimed I use my meds as an excuse to get out of work “a few times a week”. Uhmm, way to flat-out lie you fucking scumbag, I’ve asked to retake a test a total of ONE TIME because that was when I first fucking started the meds and I kept falling asleep.
I know I wasn’t as nice as I could have been about it, but it’s not like I stood up and yelled “I DEFY YOU WOMAN I WILL NOT DO THIS SHEET EVER GRAAAGGGHH-“. I told her I’d do it for homework. And this isn’t one of those oh-I’m-in-a-fight-with-my-friend-and-my-boyfriend-broke-up-with-me bad days, this is one of those bad days that is out of my control. I’m tired of everyone at my school being suspicious of me when I’ve never even done anything bad, unless you count not doing all my homework as something bad and worthy of never being trusted again. I hate dealing with it. They don’t understand what this feels like.
I must say that was very assholish on maset and rogers part, but if I were you I’d just go along with it and pretend I was doing the work. Teachers aren’t going to understand everything that is going on in our lives and we shouldn’t really expect them to. They have shit to do to. One kid doesn’t have to do their work cuz of meds. Then the next kid says something. Then another kid’s pet weasel got herpes and pretty soon nobody is doing any work. She was just thinking for the better of the class and she obviously is a bitch who doesn’t give a shit about your problem and it just would have been better to at least pretend you were doing the work and be peaceful
